Heart

I need to get some stuff out- I am having a hard time these days. Emotionally and physically. I have recently started taking Body Combat classes at the gym we go to. And let me tell you.. It is rough! I am so sore and stay sore for days. I am so out of shape. I may be thin but definitely not healthy! haha. What can I say, I love my junk food and laziness. :) The class is fun and a stress reliever. I wish that it was more than just once a week. But to make up for that I also am doing yoga once a week as well. Its time to kick it into gear and get healthy. Which leads me to the emotional struggle I have. As many know Doug and I have been trying to get pregnant for a little over 2 years. And no results. We will be going to a fertility doctor this month to hopefully get some guidance. But I am kind of at the point of feeling hopeless and that maybe this isnt Gods will for us. We both desperately want kids. Its extremely hard to watch and hear about so many women I know who end up pregnant so fast, not trying, or not even wanting kids. To be honest... Kind of tired of it. I rejoice with the fact that they get this amazing blessing, but at the same time its heart breaking for Doug and I. Mothers day was rough, I know Fathers day will be for Doug. Hopefully after our appointment will give us some clarity on what needs to happen next, whether that be some type of medical procedure or adoption. I pray for the Lords will, whatever it is.

Bon Apetit!

I was reminded last night of how blessed I am to have a godly husband like Doug. I am so thankful for him and couldnt have picked a better guy to spend my life with! With all the talk of Bin Laden being killed and all the facebook posts and celebrating of the US on his death, I was reminded by Doug that as Christians we should be praying for salvation for those who need it, whether we like them or not. The Lord does not take pleasure in the death of the wicked, He would rather see them turn to Him in repentence. As believers we are citizens of Heaven and not of this world, and our focus should be for us to be witnesses to nonbelievers. Amen to the fact that Jesus is a just god and the wicked will see judgement. But it does break my heart to know that there are those who will see judgement and not have eternal life with the Lord. I just pray that my focus would be on the kindgom and to pray for those who desperately need Jesus.

In other news, I made Boeuf Bourignonne! Man was it time consuming! Took 3 hours. The recipe called for a few cups of red wine. I was hesitant to cook with alcohol, because, well lets be honest, Im not a fan of alcohol, I dont like it, dont drink it, never will and have strong feelings about it. I know cooking with it burns off all the alcohol but I was still nervous about it. Call me strange. Whatever. :) Shopping for the wine is another story! I had no idea which one to choose! World Market has a huge selection so I thought that was the best place to go. I looked dumb founded standing in the section trying to pick one. Thankfully Doug was there shopping with me and chose one, the cheapest one. :) thats how I like to shop! Dinner was delicious. The wine added a nice sweet taste to the beef. Definitely something I will have to make again when I have an extra 3 hours. :) Plus I have half a bottle of wine sitting on the shelf not knowing what to do with it. :) So my cooking challenge is over. I didnt make as many meals as I had hoped for but thats what happens when life take a different path then you expect. But I learned a few new recipes and tried new things. I will continue to try new stuff and enhance my culinary skills. This week tho.. Hot dogs, mac n cheese, grilled cheese and tomatoe soup. Yay for mothers day week at Edibles... ;)