antsy

I want to pack up all of our stuff, move into a home, and unpack everything and organize. I want to deep clean like never before. Yes I know im crazy.. I love doing that stuff. Keeps my mind off of other things. Its relaxing to me. The only problem is.. it isnt possible at this time and that disappointments me. Im antsy. I want something to change. With all the times we have put offers down on houses and looked and never found one we liked, or saved up money for a down payment and then it get wiped out with something else.. it feels like a home is not in our near future. We have a nice apartment, in a good area. Im thankful for that. But is it just me or are all the questions we are asking.. the answers seem to be no..