The past couple days have been a whirlwind of emotions. Friday I had my first sonogram appointment for the fertility treatment Doug and I are doing. I was nervous and not wanting to go. I didn't know what to expect. A friend of mine kept asking if I was okay because apparentnly I looked extremely nervous. I was. Usually sonograms are supposed to be an exciting thing and being able to see the little life growing inside you. Well it's not fun when there is nothing there. I always thought my first sono would be seeing my baby. Growing up when I thought about having kids it never occurred to me that we would go thru this. God is so good and I know is using this to show us something and doing something big in our lives. Thankfully the technician was so nice and talked me through it all. She said everything looked normal and good. Nothing to be concerned about yet. My next series will be in the next week or two. I hope for the same results. I pray this doesn't wipe us out financially. Paying for each appointment out of pocket is never fun. God will provide.
Also today my mom informed me that my great grandmother who is going to be 101 years old this year is in the hospital due to a spot on her liver and there is nothing they can do to help her. All they can do is make her as comfortable as possible. It breaks my heart that i wont get a chance to see her again or introduce Doug to her. I selfishly pray for healing and that she will live another year. I pray that she wouldn't be in much pain anymore. I pray she finds Jesus.
In a happy note, Doug and I have a yard of beautiful grass. I just stare at it and thank God for blessing us with it. Thanks to niki's mom who got us a great deal!